Life as I see it
Hi there, this is my online diary.

I'm Alliana "Yana" Mendoza. A student by day, and a blogger by night. An aspiring artist, photographer & architect.

17 years young. A Darwinian yesterday, FEUture Architect of tomorrow!

This is the place where I release my visual thoughts about love, life, and anything else that comes to mind.


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I finally got my class schedule for Architecture in FEU. Yay! I’m so excited for another chapter that I will open this coming June 10, 2013. Horns up to the FEUture Architects! 

I finally got my class schedule for Architecture in FEU. Yay! I’m so excited for another chapter that I will open this coming June 10, 2013. Horns up to the FEUture Architects! 

Thursday, May 30, 2013
Pardon me for this blurry photo. I really miss painting. I know I’m still an amateur when I have to paint something realistic, but it doesn’t matter. The beginning is always the hardest. I know that. Though that doesn’t give me the guts to give up on something I have always wanted to do. As long as I define “art,” nothing can hinder me on pursuing my career. I have once told myself that I would be an artist someday, then my friend commented, “You are already an artist, Alliana. You are an artist in your own way.” From that day forward, I knew that she was right all along. I am an artist.

Pardon me for this blurry photo. I really miss painting. I know I’m still an amateur when I have to paint something realistic, but it doesn’t matter. The beginning is always the hardest. I know that. Though that doesn’t give me the guts to give up on something I have always wanted to do. As long as I define “art,” nothing can hinder me on pursuing my career. I have once told myself that I would be an artist someday, then my friend commented, “You are already an artist, Alliana. You are an artist in your own way.” From that day forward, I knew that she was right all along. I am an artist.

Monday, May 27, 2013

My new sounds:

Every time that I can hear a thunder, my talent comes out. I do not know why, maybe because the sound of passion hits me on the inside. 

Every time that I can hear a thunder, my talent comes out. I do not know why, maybe because the sound of passion hits me on the inside. 

There is this someone special in my life who wrote this in the sand of Boracay. I’ve always wanted this, beforehand. Someone who would take risk to whisper in the sand that he loves me. Telling “I love you” wasn’t really enough for me, proving does, and he does that. 

There is this someone special in my life who wrote this in the sand of Boracay. I’ve always wanted this, beforehand. Someone who would take risk to whisper in the sand that he loves me. Telling “I love you” wasn’t really enough for me, proving does, and he does that. 

My first Manila Hotel experience
I never could have imagined that I have gone to this kind of place before until my headmaster made my imagination come to life. This was my batch’s (in high school) special treatment of all the things that we have been through over the years. My batch, Batch Tagumpay has gained lots of achievement in high school: we were the first batch who took the NCAE (way back in our third year high school level), and became number 1 in Region 3. Most of us passed in UP and Ateneo! Yay! And lastly, we have attained 100% in our DLSUCET, USTET, and Mapua’s Entrance Exam. 
I consider this testimonial dinner with Prof. Rollie, Ma’am Darlene, Teacher Grace, and my classmates as one of the most memorable nights in my entire life. Before we eat our dinner, each and every one of us, the Batch Tagumpay, has to present a message to our mentors. To tell you honestly, I wasn’t that prepared for that speech! Hahaha. When it was my turn to speak out among the crowd, my tears have begun to fall. I felt a relief when I was able to thank Prof. Rollie, Ma’am Darlene, and Teacher Grace for molding us to become the “best of us.” Without them, our high school life must be boring and not thrilling. Our batch was once considered as the naughtiest batch ever in the Darwin history. Nevertheless, we have proven ourselves and the entire school that we cannot just be the naughtiest but also one of the most memorable batch. When it was Prof. Rollie’s turn to speak out all of his messages to us, I was really shocked of what he had told me, “Alliana, one of the most beautiful girls, at pinakamakulit noong kabataan mo pa. Alam kong habulin ka pero wag kang papahabol sa college ha!” I was really surprised when he told me that. Hehehe. 
After the long talk… dinner time’s ready! I was able to taste lots of different cuisines like the Italian, Japanese, and Chinese. Too bad I wasn’t able to taste any Korean food because I was starstruck with the desserts! I love ice cream! I love everything that is sweet! Their ice cream flavors were mouth-watering. One word to sum up the food in Manila Hotel: HEAVEN. 
When it was the time to say goodbye, we thanked our mentors. My classmates went out the hotel but I was left for some confidential reasons. Prof. Rollie has talked to me about my personal status and stuff that I have gone through my years in Darwin. I wasn’t really expecting that he kept his eye on me over my ten years stay in that school. When we were having a conversation, my tears have burst into its finest! Knowing that he has given me lots of chances and opportunities, I felt really blessed. 
Soon enough, I know, Batch Tagumpay and my mentors will reunite again, in the near future!

My first Manila Hotel experience

I never could have imagined that I have gone to this kind of place before until my headmaster made my imagination come to life. This was my batch’s (in high school) special treatment of all the things that we have been through over the years. My batch, Batch Tagumpay has gained lots of achievement in high school: we were the first batch who took the NCAE (way back in our third year high school level), and became number 1 in Region 3. Most of us passed in UP and Ateneo! Yay! And lastly, we have attained 100% in our DLSUCET, USTET, and Mapua’s Entrance Exam. 

I consider this testimonial dinner with Prof. Rollie, Ma’am Darlene, Teacher Grace, and my classmates as one of the most memorable nights in my entire life. Before we eat our dinner, each and every one of us, the Batch Tagumpay, has to present a message to our mentors. To tell you honestly, I wasn’t that prepared for that speech! Hahaha. When it was my turn to speak out among the crowd, my tears have begun to fall. I felt a relief when I was able to thank Prof. Rollie, Ma’am Darlene, and Teacher Grace for molding us to become the “best of us.” Without them, our high school life must be boring and not thrilling. Our batch was once considered as the naughtiest batch ever in the Darwin history. Nevertheless, we have proven ourselves and the entire school that we cannot just be the naughtiest but also one of the most memorable batch. When it was Prof. Rollie’s turn to speak out all of his messages to us, I was really shocked of what he had told me, “Alliana, one of the most beautiful girls, at pinakamakulit noong kabataan mo pa. Alam kong habulin ka pero wag kang papahabol sa college ha!” I was really surprised when he told me that. Hehehe. 

After the long talk… dinner time’s ready! I was able to taste lots of different cuisines like the Italian, Japanese, and Chinese. Too bad I wasn’t able to taste any Korean food because I was starstruck with the desserts! I love ice cream! I love everything that is sweet! Their ice cream flavors were mouth-watering. One word to sum up the food in Manila Hotel: HEAVEN. 

When it was the time to say goodbye, we thanked our mentors. My classmates went out the hotel but I was left for some confidential reasons. Prof. Rollie has talked to me about my personal status and stuff that I have gone through my years in Darwin. I wasn’t really expecting that he kept his eye on me over my ten years stay in that school. When we were having a conversation, my tears have burst into its finest! Knowing that he has given me lots of chances and opportunities, I felt really blessed. 

Soon enough, I know, Batch Tagumpay and my mentors will reunite again, in the near future!

Friday, May 24, 2013

Nothing but the ordinary “Formal Dinner”

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Today, I woke up so early so I could get my hair and make-up done. To tell you honestly, I wasn’t that excited to attend our last formal dinner. Why? I do not know. Maybe because we got used to celebrate this event every year that our taste buds become neutral already.

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My best friend Paula and I had our photoshoot as well. We really enjoy being photographed you know. It became a habit already. We had our graduation photo taken today as well.

Let me cut the story short, I remembered Kuya, our “DJ” for the whole night. I wasn’t really expecting him to approach me at first and have a picture with him. I ain’t a celebrity. Come on! Hahaha! 

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There is something about this day that I couldn’t get over with - the last moment when we had our last formal dine in with our fellow schoolmates, and when I danced with a best friend of mine who seems to be a stranger to me (sometimes). I have observed that he, my bestfriend, was avoiding me… I do not know why but I really felt the coldness of our friendship when I have danced with him. Whenever I talk to him, his eyes were turning over the other side, as if I wasn’t existing in front of him. I was asking him what was his problem but he couldn’t answer. He let go of me and then,image

Carl and I decided to dance Harlem Shake. It was really embarrassing for a girl like me to go wild in front of the dance floor. But for once, I wanted myself to be free from blue.

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Batch Tagumpay ‘13.

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The 6y girls of our batch. 6y = Sexy.

These will all be missed!

Wednesday, May 22, 2013
"Sometimes I wonder if my whole life will pass by this way: me waiting in the shadows, waiting for something to happen. Waiting for someone else to make it happen, something new or different or crazy and amazing. I have been there for so long, letting everyone else figure it out for me, floating along without much direction or conscious thought. Reacting."
"You said you never wanted to see me hurt. Did you close your eyes then when I cried?"
Friday, May 10, 2013

Class Prophecy

       While taking my free time in a coffee shop, I thought of the people who gave me a lot of memories to remember - my 4th year high school family. I reminisced the good old times that we all shared together. For every one of them are treasured memories in my heart. So as I started typing in my laptop, the waitress called my name and gave me my frappe. A sticky note has been stuck on my frappe cup, “I’ll be seeing you later my dear friend!” I wonder who put that sticky note on my cup.

 

Anne Catherine Bernadette Capistrano – She is my so-called “sister” in school. The first time I knew this girl, I must admit that I had seen a lot of potential in her. By her fascinating skills in planning, designing buildings and solving Math problems, I fathomed that she will become a successful engineer someday. Gazing upon her eyes and being friends with her for a long time, I have anticipated that we could be co-workers someday. I tasted my frappe and continue browsing my laptop. I checked my watch and found out that it was already 8:45am when someone sat before me. I didn’t mind her at first because I was too busy. She called me by my nickname that has caught my attention, “Yana!” And there, it was Catherine. “Have you seen the note that I stuck on your cup a while ago?” She asked. I didn’t really expect that she was the one who gave me that note. “Yes, I did! I never saw you coming.” She grew up as a fine woman like the one that I have imagined way back then. I saw her name tag in her polo shirt indicating, Engr. Catherine Capistrano. We took our seats and had some time together. She told me that she is now a licensed engineer. In the nick of time, we talked shops and invited her to have our project together come true. During our high school days, we both planned in establishing the Philippine Disneyland. Our dreams had come to life!

Clint Ashley Domingo – As Catherine and I started planning our new project, someone called me via video call. Again, I didn’t expect this guy calling me. I am on the phone with Clint, my high school friend who never failed to make our tummy go wild because of his simple jokes. He may have the biggest tummy in our class but had the happiest smile among all of us. I portray him as an engineer as well. He could be the next one in charge on his father’s footsteps, for his father is an engineer and owns a company. While we were on the phone with Clint, I recommended him to have a part time job by being a comedian on TV. He refused. He told us that he is a licensed engineer as well! What a coincidence! I hit upon a plan. He could be one of my co-workers in establishing the Philippine Disneyland. I asked him to join our project. Without any hesitations, he approved my offer. The call ended with his last words saying, “Let’s have a meeting soon, all right?”

 

Joel Esquivel Jr. – I started to think of the guy who used to be my suitor before. He was one of those guys whom I knew came from a family who started from scratch. Because of the hard work and sacrifices of his parents, they are now as rich as no one could ever be. They are rich in money and rich in heart. This guy may be stubborn and bossy at times but if you knew him more, you wouldn’t believe that he could be the sweetest one for you. He usually helps me with my Math home works during our high school days. I perceived him as a mathematician because of his intellectual knowledge in Math, and an engineer someday. We spoke on the phone and asked him, “Hi Joel! Our old classmates, Catherine and Clint are my co-workers. Would you mind if you could be one of the engineers who would help me build the Philippine Disneyland?” And then, he answered, “I don’t like!” I do not know what to react when he talked back again, “I was just kidding you! I would be honored. So, when will we plan that? Let’s have a meeting soon!” Our conversations had ended.

 

Rigilkent Paul Estrella – “I need to go!” I told Catherine. I have to hang them up for a while. I forgot that I would meet with the guy whose name was named after a star Rigil Kentaurus. He was one of my best guy buddies way back in my high school life. He was my crush before, believe it or not. He was an artist, an artist in his own way. Every girl will fall in love with him because of his passion for music. He grooves so well that he could be a member of the Philippines’ new set of dancers who compete worldwide. Height doesn’t give him any hindrances in pursuing his dream of becoming a surgeon. On the other side of the door, his spiritual life, I could see him as the preacher in their church. He invited me before in attending the youth service in their church. I am a Roman Catholic, yet he still persuaded me to visit their church some time. I have investigated that he is really a devoted Christian. He is indeed a child of God. It was really a soothing experience when I have seen his spiritual side. I met up with this guy in the studio to record our very first album together! I forgot to tell you guys that we sang not just for ourselves but also for the Lord.

 

Adrian Joseph Gaddi – As Rigil and I finished our photo shoot. We decided to go to the mall and have fun playing together in Time Zone. While we were playing, AJ, our former classmate in high school had appeared on our sight. He was this geek guy in our batch who is really fond of playing computer games. If you saw his outfit, you wouldn’t be able to determine that he has a lot of talent. Rigil and I both waved our hands to him when he suddenly approached us, “Are you guys having fun playing our new game?” I was shocked when he mentioned the word “our.” So, he was the one who built that thing. Amazing! I was right that he would be a game developer someday.

 

Juzsper Avery Gimeno – We were almost through playing when Juzsper got in the way. I remembered him as the guy in our batch who is the only one who studied in Ateneo de Manila. He was from Bahrain and studied here in the Philippines. His innate sense of thinking is the one I admire the most. During our high school days, we always talk about computer games. He loves playing computer games. He loves eating too! Juzsper asked me to go eat somewhere. “Sure!” I told him. So I said goodbye to Rigil.

 

Carl Joshua Marcial – As I walked nearby the mall, I had seen a good-looking guy from afar. He was wearing a formal suit and carrying a suitcase. I told myself, “He seems familiar.” As the guy went nearer, I noticed that he was also my former classmate in high school. He became so memorable in my high school life because he was the guy who always teases me all the time. He bullied me back then but at the end of the day, I know, he is still a true friend of mine. “Hi Carl! Long time no see.” He was shocked when I greeted him. He answered back, “Hi small!” He never changed, he still teases me. It’s almost lunch time so we decided to have our lunch together. As we ate, we talked about things about his life, how’s he going, and many more. He told me that he is now a lawyer. Wow! Anyway, it’s almost 1:00 pm and he needed to say goodbye. “Sorry Alliana, I still have a meeting. I’ll see you again next time, okay?”

 

Faith Hanna Mendoza – After I bid farewell to Carl, I went to the mall and bought some clothes. I went inside a clothing line and found lots of intricate designs inside. As I went to the counter and paid the clothes, another former classmate in high school, Faith Hanna surprised me! She made me purchase the clothes with a discount. She was the owner of the shop. After that, she asked me to attend the youth service in their church for she is now a member of the music ministry. This girl is a pianist. “Sure! I will.” I answered.

 

Paola Andrea Mendoza – After I shopped, I went home and rest for an hour. My phone rang. Kring! Kring! My mom was calling me. I answered. She told me that I must have my medical checkup. As I went to the hospital for my checkup, I heard a familiar voice and saw a familiar face. I approached the doctor and lend my hand to her. I was shocked that my former classmate in high school, Apol, was now a psychiatrist – my doctor. She asked me a few questions about what’s going on with my life, if I have a normal sleep, and so on. After my checkup, we talked about things in the past. She was one of those people who are dearest in my heart. I’ve been friends with her since I was a little kid. We always had a heart-to-heart talk session before. Her cheerful personality attracted a lot of people. We have shared common denominators as well. She loves photography as well! I became her subject before and I really enjoyed working with her.

 

Luis Jhoshua Padilla – After I had my checkup, I went to a basketball court to watch a game. As I was watching, I saw him playing basketball. He grew a lot and became more attractive in my eyes. He was my crush way back in our 4th year high school life. He was one of those guys whom I admire the most. His sense of formality and gentlemanliness makes the girls go gaga over him. He’s smart too! I can sum him up in just three words, “Tall, dark, and handsome.” Before, he recited an oration which gave me the idea that he could be a good politician someday. And I was right, he was a politician now. We had a few talks and said goodbye. I need to prepare an early dinner.

 

Earvin John Parulan – I am on my way home when I went to the sari-sari store to buy some soy sauce and other ingredients to spice up the food that I am going to make for dinner. I reached the door in my house and invited my best guy friend for an early dinner. He was my best friend since I was in high school. He is very friendly and approachable. In our batch he is the “campus best friend.” This guy became my teddy bear whenever I cry. He’s on his way already and I need to prepare dinner as fast as I can. I cooked Adobo for dinner. The door bell had rung. I opened the door and Earvin was there. I let him in and had our dinner. While we were eating, he told me that I cooked like a chef. He asked me what product I have used in cooking Adobo. I told him that I used Silver Swan. I was shocked when he told me that he is now the working for that product. Since we were in high school, I portray him as a businessman. His sense of responsibility and self-confidence gave me the idea of him handling their family business. When we were done eating, I had to say goodbye again to an old friend and see him some other time.

 

Angelica Pascual – I was now experiencing some headache. I had to go to a drug store to buy some medicine when I saw Angelica there. Way back in my high school life, I could still remember her mom’s family business. They had a boutique. She was good in memorizing. She loved science and new discoveries. I portrayed her as a pharmacist and a loving mother. “Mommy!” A little girl had shouted. I saw her first cute daughter and hugged me. Her eyes shined bright like a diamond like her mom. After we had a small talk, I needed to go somewhere for someone asked me to have a friendly date.

 

Jonathan Sergio – It’s already 7pm when my former classmate called me. He told me to watch his race then he’ll treat me for dinner. He is one of the sweetest guys I have known in my high school days. Whenever I feel cold, he takes my hand to make me feel warm. He may tease me all the time but every time I am in blue, he was always the first guy who approaches me and makes me laugh. I saw him as a racer. He loves cars. He watches car races and had fun with them. His artistic talents made me think that he could be a cartoonist as well. He was really good in drawing. I also watched him race. It’s really cool watching an old friend’s dream come into life. After the race, I saw him get out of the car. He really looks good with his racing suit and handsome car. He changed his outfit and took me to a restaurant. After we had our dinner, he hugged me and had to say goodbye. He drove me on our way home.

 

Paula Faye Turado – It was a long day! I almost fell asleep in my couch. I turned on the television and watched the news. I got star struck when I saw my best friend on TV! Before, way back in our high school life, I foresee her as a newscaster. With her big self-confidence in public speaking and her sense of handling large responsible projects, I won’t really doubt that she would be a newscaster someday. She was like my twin sister since the world began. We both enjoy writing and dancing together. If it’s because of God’s will, I wouldn’t be able to meet this special girl who had a place in my heart wholeheartedly. I called her on the phone and congratulate her for a job well done. I was so proud of her.

 

Alliana Marie Mendoza – As my journey ends for today, I slept and dreamed of the things I wanted to be. I am an adventurer, a traveler, and a dreamer. I am now reminiscing the past. Way back then, I had always been the girl in our class who always get sick. I thought that I wouldn’t be able to make it on college. I thank the Lord with all my heart because He gave me a good reason to continue chasing my dreams. “Stay positive!” No one has died by following the good side. I woke up and see wonderful things surrounding me. I thought I am in heaven already, but no. This is reality already. I went for a shower and thought of the things that I wanted to be. I saw myself as a fine artist, a singer and a dancer, a DJ, a writer and an architect. I dressed up and went to the coffee shop again. “Reality is better than my dreams,” an ending quotation that remarks my past high school journey. I am now ready to face my next adventures!

 
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